drowsy skin
& rising.
we road circles
around the ring road
on our way back home.
drowsy skin
& rising.
we road circles
around the ring road
on our way back home.
our limbs
in holding pattern
the pads of our fingertips
serenade
the empty spaces
on a sheet of paper.
there is a certain majesty
when trains arrive early
and you can sit in them
quietly
contemplating the journey ahead.
echoes travel
through air vents
sounds sit like
pieces of raw meat
in the sun
flies slide down
the walls where
sweat gathers
in the small
of your back.
bored with
language
and other acts of denial
we made a pledge to honour
only the most
profound moments
like the surprise caused
when blood stops flowing
to a limb.
It’s like
Reading a book with half the words blacked out
It’s like
Remembering something that has never happened
It’s like
Travelling to the end of the earth
It’s like
Starting something from the beginning
It’s like
Forgiving yourself
our conversation turned
to a feedback loop
I collected the things
we almost said
and built a memorial
in the park near our house.
our neighbours brought objects
like old mobile phones
and sheets of transparent paper
to make a shrine
and I would come each day
with new words
as my offering.
i tried to draw a
memory map
of the first house
we ever lived in.
the hallway kept
looping back on itself
an eternal return
in my imaginary
floorplan.
***
you were in the kitchen
madly googling bloodlines
and other diaphanous things like
middle names,
insignias and
border-crossings.
i took your findings and
marked out our territory
a vanishing point between
then and there.
the seventeenth floor
thick air
& flickering
classrooms filled with clouds
the atmosphere outside
evaporating
she grew cacti
on the roof
of every house
she had ever owned.
the neighbourhood cats
would weave along
the corrugated iron
like guerrillas through a
mine-field.
in some ways,
it was a secret pledge
she had made with herself:
not to let anyone in.
her own juicy piece of armor
that thrived
like a bruised fruit
swelling
redfern st
glistening with fever
a clear autumn sky
and grant mc lennan.
***
i found 3 coins from 1988
-the year we met-
in an old handbag
i was about to throw away.
***
it reminded me
of the way you believe
that objects have secret lives
which move against each other
like songs.
you had a microphone
in your pocket
and a mouthful of glass
there were still
days and days
ahead of us
brightly lit streets and
sugar headaches
you whispered to me:
no one will
stop us now.
we were still at
version 1.0
by the time
you arrived
with munitions.
in the newspapers
teenagers were
atrophying
in the sky
the stars were
sinking.
veins that
rise over knuckles
a deaf syntax
digital cities built
on the spot.
***
you looked at me
the way an orphan might
& i would squeeze the sun from the sky
to thank you.
you wrote the city underfoot
with songlines
sixteen stories up
listening we stood still
as words formed around us
ancient maps of traffic and power stations.
you start to predict the weather
not for tomorrow,
but for centuries ahead
a walking tour
of streets that nobody treads
until somewhere in another suburb
I can hear you sleeping.
we waited there
until the sunlight disintergrated
*
you erected microphone stands
in every room in your house
*
we wanted to see
the code cracked
that night
you nursed your illness
like a baby
spending hours in the construction
of a complex algorithm
to plot the trajectory
of your own demise.
i placed flowers
in water
& paced the halls
of this institution
of desire.